ESSAY February 2025 - The God I Always Dreamed Of - Sex Fellows - Joshua H., Pennsylvania, USA

“Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.” (Step Three)

My family of origin was one of spirituality and firm belief in God. I was taught right from wrong but believed this meant God only loved me if I was doing right. As I grew older and became further trapped in my addiction, I began to live a two-faced life—one of joy on the outside but with a dark secret of shame-filled lust trapped on the inside.