ESSAY Magazine (An International Journal of Sexaholics Anonymous)

The mission of ESSAY is to serve as a source of information, experience, strength and hope to sexaholics, both inside and outside the rooms of Sexaholics Anonymous. Our vision is to provide a high-quality “meeting in print” that gathers together members from around the world. It can serve as a portable “extra meeting” especially for loners and for members who don’t have access to many meetings. In addition, Essay serves as an outreach tool to carry the message to those who have not yet found SA. We strive to include a mix of stories and shares from a wide variety of members, including men and women, prisoners, and international members. In addition, ESSAY provides Fellowship announcements and information on subjects such as new meetings, Fellowship events, and our service structure. We hope that all of the articles we publish will offer useful information and provide experience, strength, and hope to all who suffer from the disease of sexaholism. Fellowship actvities such as international conventions, regional events and local events appear in the Calendar section. Each issue has a theme and various sections to share sexaholic stories and practical tools. In addition to letters and group news, ESSAY offers short, edited articles written by members about recovery and our solution. The Practical Recovery Tools section features members sharing on the topic, “Exactly how I did it.” Submissions may also include meditations, poetry, and humor. ESSAY is guided by the principles of the Twelve Steps, Twelve Traditions and Twelve Concepts. Each issue contains the following statement:
The mission of ESSAY is to serve as a source of information, experience, strength and hope to sexaholics, both inside and outside the rooms of Sexaholics Anonymous. Our vision is to provide a high-quality “meeting in print” that gathers together members from around the world. It can serve as a portable “extra meeting” especially for loners and for members who don’t have access to many meetings. In addition, Essay serves as an outreach tool to carry the message to those who have not yet found SA. We strive to include a mix of stories and shares from a wide variety of members, including men and women, prisoners, and international members. In addition, ESSAY provides Fellowship announcements and information on subjects such as new meetings, Fellowship events, and our service structure. We hope that all of the articles we publish will offer useful information and provide experience, strength, and hope to all who suffer from the disease of sexaholism. Fellowship actvities such as international conventions, regional events and local events appear in the Calendar section. Each issue has a theme and various sections to share sexaholic stories and practical tools. In addition to letters and group news, ESSAY offers short, edited articles written by members about recovery and our solution. The Practical Recovery Tools section features members sharing on the topic, “Exactly how I did it.” Submissions may also include meditations, poetry, and humor. ESSAY is guided by the principles of the Twelve Steps, Twelve Traditions and Twelve Concepts. Each issue contains the following statement:
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Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - Directing a Moving Object - Nancy S., Ohio, USA
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Working the Steps on fear allowed her to take action under God’s guidance.I’ve been married for almost 50 years. My husband has been unbelievably cruel, but I’ve been afraid to leave. My biggest fear has been that I wouldn’t be able to support myself, that I’d be homeless.



Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - Finding My Humanity - John D., Rhode Island, USA
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
SA kepted him sober while therapy helped him heal from trauma and shame.My wife discovered my addiction for the first time before we were married. I promised if she gave me another chance, I would spend the rest of my life making it up to her. That turned out to be a lie. She discovered my addiction for the second time after I got myself into a legal situation. I sought professional help. Unfortunately, the professional treated my addiction only as a compulsion, and he never recommended a Twelve-Step program. Within months after finishing therapy, I began acting out again.



Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - Fear to Faith - Anonymous
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
God removed her fear and replaced it with faith with works.My whole life, I’d been so bound by fear, I’d lost hope for freedom. Through working the Steps, a brilliant light at the end of a long, cold, and dark tunnel suddenly shone forth with a comforting warmth. At each step, however, fears continued to loom. Picking up the simple tool of a Fear-to-Faith inventory helped point me back toward God and the Step Two and Three solution



Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - Editor’s Corner - The Editorial Team, essay@sa.org
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Fear prevented me from experiencing healthy guilt. Guilt tells me I have done wrong. Fear also prevented me from feeling healthy shame. Shame is a slight embarrassment that others may see my wrongs. But fear primarily stopped me from facing toxic guilt and toxic shame.



Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Dear ESSAY,I am an incarcerated person in California. In the past, several of my fellow incarcerated persons and I have held SA meetings on a regular basis, and I've actually had a sponsor before. However, over the years, things have kind of fizzled out, and we no longer have our meetings, mainly due to members being dispersed throughout the system and some of the participants having been paroled.



Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - Worldwide Walls in SA - Nicky, Mortsel, Belgium
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
La Liberacion
On the last Friday of every month, the SA group "La Liberación" in Bogotá joyfully celebrates the gift of sobriety. Each member is honored with a sobriety coin and a certificate—a powerful reminder of the journey we share. For us, it’s more than a celebration; it's a way to strengthen our culture of sobriety and encourage unity within our beloved group.
Grupo La liberación



Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
“He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave.”My name is Levi and I’m a recovering sexaholic in central Nebraska in the USA. I have been sexually sober since July 20, 2017.



Monday Oct 13, 2025
ESSAY October 2025 - What’s Going On in SA - Levi H., Nebraska, USA
Monday Oct 13, 2025
Monday Oct 13, 2025
“He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave.”
My name is Levi and I’m a recovering sexaholic in central Nebraska in the USA. I have been sexually sober since July 20, 2017.
I am a sexaholic of the hopeless variety. Prior to SA, I tried all sorts of religious exercises, accountability, internet filters and therapy. These helped me stop many times, but I could never stay stopped. I attended my first meeting in late July 2017. The closest meeting was in a community around an hour away. The meetings in a city two hours away use a conference call line so people can attendtelephone conference line so that people can participate remotely. I started calling into those as well. I was making connections outside of the meeting by calling sober members in both of these fellowships.






