Thursday Jul 28, 2022
ESSAY April 2022 - Stepping Into Freedom from the Obsession - The Editorial Team
ESSAY Magazine (An International Journal of Sexaholics Anonymous)
The mission of ESSAY is to serve as a source of information, experience, strength and hope to sexaholics, both inside and outside the rooms of Sexaholics Anonymous. Our vision is to provide a high-quality “meeting in print” that gathers together members from around the world. It can serve as a portable “extra meeting” especially for loners and for members who don’t have access to many meetings. In addition, Essay serves as an outreach tool to carry the message to those who have not yet found SA. We strive to include a mix of stories and shares from a wide variety of members, including men and women, prisoners, and international members. In addition, ESSAY provides Fellowship announcements and information on subjects such as new meetings, Fellowship events, and our service structure. We hope that all of the articles we publish will offer useful information and provide experience, strength, and hope to all who suffer from the disease of sexaholism. Fellowship actvities such as international conventions, regional events and local events appear in the Calendar section. Each issue has a theme and various sections to share sexaholic stories and practical tools. In addition to letters and group news, ESSAY offers short, edited articles written by members about recovery and our solution. The Practical Recovery Tools section features members sharing on the topic, “Exactly how I did it.” Submissions may also include meditations, poetry, and humor. ESSAY is guided by the principles of the Twelve Steps, Twelve Traditions and Twelve Concepts. Each issue contains the following statement:
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Episodes
Episodes
Monday Jul 25, 2022
Monday Jul 25, 2022
I surrender in a place where I least expected it—sponsorship. I thought that, working on principle, under the guidance of the Twelve Steps and Traditions, I was safe from my character defects. I had been saying in meetings for months that my relationship with sponsors and sponsees is the template for all my relationships now. I still think that’s true, but not in the way I expected.
Sunday Jul 24, 2022
Sunday Jul 24, 2022
I began sponsoring when I was almost 18 months’ sober and was working on Step Six. I was hesitant because there was, and there remains, no formal guidance on how to sponsor, but my mentor told me it was time for me to step up to the plate.
Sunday Jul 10, 2022
Sunday Jul 10, 2022
My name is Catherine and my sobriety date is 31 March, 2021. Since I was a very young child, I have used my imagination to escape from reality. At a very early point that I can’t remember the impetus for, I began to be fascinated by and create narratives around corporal punishment. These imaginary scenarios were erotic for me, although not sexually explicit, and were always accompanied by masturbation. Masturbating was my pacifier, my comfort, my go-to for self-soothing. As a kid I would do it anywhere and was never found out. I became skilled at deception and hiding, and sometimes wondered how the adults in my life couldn’t tell. I was completely intolerant of uncomfortable situations, especially ones where I was in the wrong. If I was ever caught doing something wrong, I became a stone wall and refused to confess.
Monday Jun 13, 2022
Sunday Jun 12, 2022
Sunday Jun 12, 2022
طٌلب مني مؤخرًا كتابةُ مقال لمجلة "المقالة" عن الرصانة العاطفية. في البداية كان رد فعلي هو قول "لا". لقد أردت أن أقول لا لأنني شعرت ، في أعماقي ، أن معظم الناس في م.ج.م. يجدون صعوبة في الوصول إلى الرصانة العاطفية، لأنهم بالكاد يستطيعون الوصول إلى "الرصانة من الشهوة". ثم جاءني الإدراك أنه بدلا من قول لا، فإنني كنت بحاجة إلى مشاركة تجربتي وقوتي وأملي بطريقة مختلفة. كنت بحاجة إلى الكتابة عن الحواجز التي تحول دون الرصانة العاطفية والتي شهدتها في زمالتنا للسنوات الـ (۳۸) الماضية.
Sunday Jun 12, 2022
Sunday Jun 12, 2022
متذكرًا حياتي في عالم الشهوة ، ما زلت أشعر بالرعب واليأس - المشاعر التي كنت أعيشها كل يوم - قبل المجيء إلى البرنامج. لسنوات عديدة ، كان الإدمان على السلوكيات والأفكار الجنسية القهرية أكبر وأسوأ مشكلة في حياتي. حقيقةً لقد جعلت حياتي كارثة حقيقية. في بعض الليالي كان لدي أحلام بأنني سأعيش حياة سعيدة بدون هذه المشكلة ، ولكن في الصباح عندما أدركت أنه كان مجرد حلم ، شعرت بحزن كبير. لقد كانت حقيقة محزنة في حياتي و يبدو أنه لا يوجد علاج. وإذا حاولت قبول هذا ، أصبحت العواطف أكثر حدة مما يمكنني تحمله ، وكان علي تخديرها من خلال العودة إلى إدماني. لم أستطع تخيل أي شيء أسوأ من الجحيم الذي كنت أعيش فيه.
Thursday Jun 09, 2022
Thursday Jun 09, 2022